Psalm 139: 13-16:
For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
Our existence was no accident; we were in God’s thought before we came into being. This fills us with wonder and praise (verse 14)
God is always near and knows our thoughts: “Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain” (verse 6); even our days are known by God.
But we are not only filled by praise; wonder may change into fear and resentment. It raises questions, as I do in this prayer:
If a human was known even before birth, why are some born with severe handicaps? If God knows my future sins and shortcomings my mishap, why could this not be prevented?
My child! Your first feeling face to face with me should be a sense of wonder, because your existence is willed by me. I have loved you from before conception. But my knowledge of your life does not support a prearranged destiny which you cannot escape. Rather it is an assurance of my benevolent and gracious presence in your life whatever your conditions are, whatever you’ve made from your life.
Truly I have a plan for your life which corresponds to the original nature of humans. But much human life is not in accordance with this original nature. This has resulted in a milieu of alienation from me and between human persons and between humans and nature.
You live according to a paradigm of sin.
Couldn’t I intervene? Couldn’t I change your condition of life? How could I do this without disrespecting your integrity? Could I force you to love – to love me, your fellow humans and nature?
However, I did intervene, but without forcing you. My Son, the eternal Dao or Logos, became one of you. In him I am present to you in your sufferings, your pain – in the midst of the milieu of abuse and evil doing. In my Son, Jesus Christy, I am present when the only thing left for you is to cry: My God, my God, why have you left me, forsaken me?
This is wondrous. You meet me in my vulnerable Son, Jesus Christ, and now in your daily life you’ll meet him and me in every suffering person or created being.
In Jesus Christ you’ll find your original nature, and I’ll breathe his and my Holy Spirit into you so that you’ll have the strength to serve others in love with the sure knowledge of being my child together with Jesus Christ, of being loved and highly appreciated.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful – and even the darkness of my life will not be dark to you. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain.